| Alkemyst's Poetry ©Christopher J. Feeny All Rights Reserved |
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| What Does She See In Me? August 27, 1999 |
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As she walks in to the room every eye in the place is upon her and she just walks by, each and every other guy she sits down, sits down next to me Yeah! I'd never thought I'd reach this place to have every eye upon my face now I am that other guy for whom the grass is greener, and the sun will always shine I start to talk to get to know her a little better she moves her chair a little closer begins to smile, my heart can be heard for miles Yeah! I'd never thought I'd reach this place to have every eye upon my face now I am that other guy for whom the grass is greener, and the sun will always shine We're both laughing now, talking both out damn heads off we catch each others eyes, look a while, turn away, look back now, smile, neither of us can avoid to stare. what does she see in me? am I that prince she always dreamed of? cause she's my Queen, she is that girl I have always dreamed of If I could read her mind I would know she'd always wanted to be mine it'd be so simple then but now we can both be left to wonder Our night begins to end All our words and minds are spent I walk her to her door now we laugh a bit, as that strange feeling of nervousness comes upon us She turns to me, I hold her hand and then I see, She pulls me close and starts to kiss me! My world was black and white now it is full of colors my hearts a raging fire she's the reason for my desire We end our embrace, I look back down upon her face She starts to shed a tear, her heart being broken is what she fears. |
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| Because September 7, 1999 |
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How can I love if I won't go? To the place my heart wants to know. You know it's so hard to let go, but if I don't how can love grow? I have tried before, to fall deep into love's bliss, only to be rent and torn, put down and scorned, Just for a fleeting moment of happiness? Whose memory has been long forgotten, but the scars upon my heart still seem newly gotten. Some say how wonderful life can be, I've been told, and had dreams about one I wish came true... maybe you can show me how that story unfolds since you were there and within me planted the seed that grew. Forever, you shall be...oh so beautiful, to me, because it's what's inside and not the facade, though the package that you came in does seem to be sent to me straight from Heaven. Just have you by my side, and to know that there are no lies, brings a hundred tears to my eyes, it reminds me that I, too, can be truly happy. I will bow and worship you, each and every day cherish too... all these feelings let me show you, how this touch upon my heart makes me so damn happy. There is just one thing that I'll ask, that you never do turn your back, on the love that put me where I am at and a million things more I will return as sweetly as ambrosia from a golden cask. A blank check you have from my heart... fill in the amount of passion, and the years you never want to be apart, bring it to my soul for cashing. I hope this is the beginning of eternity, and not another purgatory... maybe I was blamed for another's sins, or maybe it was just a test to show me that something too beats within my chest, and it's because of you. |
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| Take It Slow September 8, 1999 |
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You say you want to take it slow, To give a chance for love to grow. So I will give you all the time, To get to that day when you say 'be mine'. We both know not to repeat our pasts, We hope to find a love that lasts. One that will take us both away, From all the pains that come each day. We were not made to sail the sea of life alone, God made us from parts of each other for a reason, From the same clay, from the same bone, Then scattered apart, searching now for our heart's home, to find true love, all else is treason. When there is pain, it shall be shared by us two, Halving the damage that it will do. When there is love, both our hearts will sing, Doubling the pleasure that it will bring. When there is sadness, I will give you some glee, For I know when I am sad, you will share some with me. If we ever feel anger at one another, Let's not forget what we found in each other. That is the future and today is one day, but soon many more, measured best in years they will say. Maybe one day we'll celebrate knowing no fear, No fear to fall in love with our lover, to fall in love with each other. Maybe one day we will remember no pain, for it was halved and halved and halved again, for we will share our pains, until they become so tiny, that they no longer maim. We will then call upon a heaven-sent dove, hand it what is left and have it cast out beyond, If it ever comes back, comes back to test our love, half and half again we shall, it will not break our bond. The closest thing that will ever break us apart, is when the cold hand of death comes to stop one love-filled heart, I will wait for you, until you come to me, I will stand at the gates of Heaven until I see, That light on the horizon, my lovely sun rising, The warmth that it casts, the solace that lasts. Then we shall turn and enter those Gates, for it is now Eternity that awaits. |
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| Dream September 12, 1999 |
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I once had this dream of you and me by a moonlit stream, glowing so heavenly, so bright. Why would God send me an angel tonight? And when I did awake, I saw you sleeping by me still. You did not leave in the night, you did not take flight running away with my heart, a piece of my life, measured in years off my soul, rending me with strife. One more day closer to forever we are. One more day further away from pain. We both know that way, that former rainy day, We finally both came out of that storm, seeking refuge from all that harm. Finding peace in each other's arms. It came so easy, so comfortably, it seemed as if you always knew me maybe we did know each other but were torn away in some other life, in some other place? I have to fear that this is a trick, like a pin left in a chair waiting to prick. This pin though will not draw blood from my skin, but bring anguish to my soul, yet again. I have to wonder why... what made you decide to be that ray of sunshine on my face, that star in my space, that wondrous dream of a blissful sleep, that hopeful thought of a love so deep, what made you decide to be all of this to me. |
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| She September 12, 1999 |
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She's the wind beneath my wings, the song that my heart sings, the ray of light in my eyes, She's the meaning of my life. She's all that I hold dear, displaces all my fears, I always want her near. all my love for her to hear as it sweeps over me, it brings me to my knees. My heart's a raging fire, it is her that I desire, I will do all I can, she will have all I have, there is only one thing I ask, is that I can be her man. She is everything to me, the cause of all my dreams, thought of ecstasy is what my mind will see... from now to eternity. |
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| Stormy September 14, 1999 |
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It's stormy out, the rain will fall, but my love will not leave you. A caring word, love that can be heard, oh I just need you. To lie beside me, in the night, to tell me it will be alright, cast away all my fears, cast out my fright, you are my saviour. All those things, and even more, it is you that I adore. You're my sun, and my moon, even all the stars in heaven, have I just begun living? Your loving stare, your flowing hair a million things that show you care, by simply being there, you hold my stare, just lost in your presence. Now we both lay down to sleep, apart for the moment, but in the future, and it is near, we will always be together, and this will seem to the forever we'll share, just a dream that we have dreamt, but now have awaken, in each other's arms, and realize the dream is in waking. |
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| So Close September 16, 1999 |
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So close, yet so far, life is so hard when you don't have the same four walls to sleep in, but it's ok because when you're away I still have you to dream of. Still, just the same, one day I'd like to give you my name, and kiss you each night, as you lay there sleeping tight, and then I will close my eyes, lie gently by your side, and never have to worry about leaving. |
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| You Are My Heart You See September 16, 1999 |
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You're my cover in the rain, soothing when I feel pain, help when I need a hand, a map to my dreamland. Joy when I feel sad, or mad, you complete me when I feel empty. You are a part of me, since you are my heart, you see, and with every beat it reminds me, of all the love I feel for you, and everything you've made me see, of what love should and could be, and is now that I've found you. Without you what would I do? For there would be no sun nor moon nor stars to end the day nor light in any way, it would always rain, bringing pain, driving me insane, the world would become my tomb, a perpetual empty room. I could only hope when I die, Heaven would be on my side, and show me you there, because it just would not be paradise, at least not to me, if you weren't there, because even in Heaven, since you are my heart, you see, I would still be empty. |
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| Night September 17, 1999 |
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Here we lay to bathe in the night, both our souls shining so bright. Before two lonely hearts, now just one, beating more happily than before, Who would have thought that life could be won? or that one day my heart would soar? As I you close your eyes to fall to sleep, watching you lay there so lovely, I have to weep, For I feel that finally someone loves me, as much as I will always love thee. |
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| Love's Face September 22, 1999 |
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It has been one month now, but many more I do vow, Each and everyday to love you more, deeper and deeper to my heart's core. One day soon I hope to find, a place like I see in my mind, just you and me, together we will bind, forever more, as 'us' we will be, just us two, our hearts set free. Set free, but still returning home, for that is where our love doth roam and in our bed, our resting place, is where at last, we will embrace, and sleep until the morning, and then awake to finally see love's true face. |
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| Why I Love You September 23, 1999 |
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If you could see things from my view, stand there in my shoes, you would see why I love you. It's everything you do. Like the way you say, it's gonna be ok, when I don't think things will go quite my way. you just smile like you do, and I can feel it through and through. Perhaps that look that you give me, when there is more of you to give me... You always seem to know what I mean, and always what I need, like a place to rest my head, my little feather bed, you even tuck me in, to help me begin again. Whispering sweet words in my ear. What's not to love from here? when outside here is fear, of life without you there, of you to complete my view, because you make me happy to be in my shoes, I hope that I do, too, share this with you, because without you there would be no view, just a pair of empty shoes, nothing so shiny and new. All this I owe to you, because you have made me see, all of what life could be. When you are holding me, realize that I am also holding thee, and when you need me, I will help it to be ok, smile to help your happiness stay, share myself in every way, be a pillow or two, a bed of feathers just for you, I will tuck you in, to help you begin again, whispering sweet words of love from within, that you put there, and now I share, with my Love, my Life, my Heavenly Paradise, so come take a walk, come share my life, but first put on my shoes, and then you will see from my view, and you'll realize too, what I have always knew, for my heart is you...this is why I love you. |
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| It's So Clear September 30, 1999 |
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It's so clear to me the love I feel, and all the things I want to do, to help us build a nice new life, one which is free from hurt and strife. Where everyday our love grows stronger, I cannot take it very much longer, but not for fear of losing you, but of having my mind be ripped in two. So many things to I want to do, each and everyone for you. There is a place I see to live, and within those walls our love to give. A perfect place for you and me, that little place I long to be. And one day I see a ring, a symbol to show how hearts can sing, a golden band upon your hand, a stone of light upon that band, our love professed across the land, and me becoming the happiest man. So many gifts I wish to give, the perfect life for you to live, all your wants, I'll make them so, all your pains, I'll make them go. It will be our paradise, where I can gaze into your eyes, and breathe in your beauty that makes me so high, to always be there right by your side, where I will hear my own heart's sigh... Someday I hope that's what our life will be, but for now these dreams will be the end of me, there is one thing to make them reality, that is when you marry me. |
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| Why I Do October 12, 1999 |
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All these thoughts spin around in my mind, as I think about you all the time. What can I do to make you feel, as if your life is beyond what's real? A fairy tale written just for you, about both our lives starting new. No past mistakes, no more heartbreaks, just us two, with love in all we do, transcending life, living our dreams, playing soft songs on each other's heart strings. You are so dear to me, you are a part of me. I do not want you to ever feel pain, never to feel ashamed, never to feel left out, to have any doubts, about my love or what I do or say, I want you to be happy everyday. and to feel always beautiful, because that's the way that I see you, I love you, and that is why I do what I do. |
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| I Hope October 20, 1999 |
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I hope that I am gentle dear, and yet excite you too. Everything you want me to be, I want to be for you. The sun in every morning, the moon upon your sea, each and every happy day, I hope you'll find in me. I want to make you feel so hot, and yet sometimes just cuddle, looking forward to every time, my touch is more than subtle... Although we had our separate pasts, as upsetting as they may be, today we both shall start again and despair no longer be. I am sorry for having you share them, all those painful memories, but the doubt of me unknowing hurt worse than the reality. So please will you forgive me, and I will put this past behind me. |
For each day we are together dear, it will replace one bad memory, until it is only us our minds see and no more things gloomy. Each time you make me happy, I hope I make you too and every pain my mind erases I hope that yours does too. For I pledge my love to you, no matter what the day may bring and if it is ever pain, please do share with me. For my love is based on caring, not what I want you to do for me. When I see you smiling back is enough reward for me. You see I will always love you as you make my life happy. Even if we are both sad, know it's only temporary, and though sometimes we may be mad, will we really stay angry? I will always love you Sheri Lynn, and one day soon I will ask formally, Will you spend forever here each and every day with me? |
| You Are Still My Heart October 25, 1999 |
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You are still my heart you see, even when your memories pain me. You tell me they shouldn't, that I shouldn't care, but I saw you did baby, so it's a pain I will share. It's OK, you were just honest with me, and now in the end it's just us that will be. I am still here, as I will be next year. You see as my heart, I feel what you've seen. Even if it's something that you haven't told me... but you see me too in this kind of way, you know when there is something that is bothering me. Maybe we were made from that same jar of clay, but torn apart suddenly sometime on that day. Maybe to test us in some sort of way, to see if true loves will still find each other, even when the seas are stormy and gray. If I were to leave when you caused me pain or if you were to, when I caused you the same Why build a life on so much uncertainty? though if you left I would be in eternal misery. It would be much better now to know it was just a charade, hearts aren't to be broken, when love's to be made. So give me your broken heart, here is mine. Let us set these pieces with our love and time, until the only past is our lives intertwined. We'll remember no others, except just the time. When the sky seemed much blacker, and pain would not hide. There was no love, nor bird songs above, nor flowers to smell. Just a living hell, until you came into my life and showed me it could be alright. You are still my heart you see, and I know you must be an angel, for my heart now has wings. And you are the reason for the songs that it sings. I will always love you baby, you can always depend on me. And in the end when life starts to ebb, I will squeeze your hand gently as I lay in our bed. Knowing there is nothing I'd change, nothing about you, and if I could restart life, I would only do it with you. |
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| Choose to Go November 4, 1999 |
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If you ever choose to go, turn out the sun when you leave, and take my heart, for it would only grieve, then cast my life into darkness for that would be all I could be. black - alabaster - ebony... the color of the heart which would rot in me. For now that it's known true love, it can't be forgotten, and never could another replace you, or start my heart beating. Welcome to hell, the place my soul'd be caught in, there would be no sense of someone else and me meeting. By losing you, I would lose me too, for you are all I want, all I need, all I love, all I see. So if you are gone, I would be left to want, because I would not have anything, I would forget about love, because it would become a painful thing. I would trade all that I see to have you back with me This is why I would never do anything to make you leave, come to me for all your wants, let it be me, the one you always need, find this as the place for endless love, and when your eyes awake each morning, let it be me, the first thing they want to see, and when they do, know it to be me, looking back at you. |
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| Why Do Other Lover's Sigh November 9, 1999 |
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Why do other lovers sigh, as we stare into each other's eyes, or as we hold hands, or embrace while we wait in line? Just passing the time... Enjoying each other because we love one another. While they bicker and fight, arguing throughout the night, or sit at the table not talking. I wonder as I hold you so tight, why would two undertake such a plight? and why so far apart as a couple are they walking? Maybe we have what other lovers dream, at least to me is what it seems and why do they wear a ring, if their heart doesn't sing, as mine does when you come through the door? It is you I adore, mi amore. It's the way it should be, maybe that's what they see, and why they get spiteful with envy, that they're not so happy. Especially when they see, we aren't even married, nor on our honeymoon, though perhaps it will be soon. Then maybe more would sigh seeing us so high, breathing in each other, just wedded to one another. Consummating our love affair into eternal love that we share. And when others finally do see, they will know what love should be. |
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| Sunrise November 9, 1999 |
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Sunrise, is it already time to rise? I see your eyes, I'm mesmerized. Morning Bright, I hold you tight, so marks the end of a love-filled night, but what a way to start my day everything bad is now made ok. For I have you by my side, and love crashing over me like a wave at high tide, and your smile... I just need to stare a while, at your beauty, as if it's my duty, to show you all the love I can... Like I'm possessed, sometimes I can't stand, but why would I want to, when I can lay here and love you? It's so hard to leave our bed, what will it be like as newlyweds? I take the time for one last kiss, for during my day I'm going to miss kissing, loving, hugging, touching, just talking to you though only a few hours until we start the night anew, then several hours I can cherish you, until the moon makes us sleep. Slipping into a slumber so deep. Spending my time there, dreaming of you, as I sleep holding you, until the sun comes back to wake me, and let's me know it's time to see my Sheri. |
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| Why I Cry November 23, 1999 |
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You may wonder why I cry, as I lay right by your side. It's not really a sadness that I feel, while lying there next to you. Though some tears are for the years spent prior wasted, painful, my soul on fire... I would trade all those years, all those days, just to start my life now here with you, but most of the tears are caused by happy thoughts happier ones than I have ever felt. Some of the present, some of our past, reliving each day again in my head as if it's my last. Though it's thoughts of the future that bring the most tears. Will I lose you? Will you go? Will you marry me? Set my soul free? Will you forever stay with me? make my heart dance, and sing .... all of these wonderful things! That is how I would like it to be, and that is how it seems to be! One day we'll wake up happy in our own bed, with a kiss, embrace, love upon our face, knowing a love that was worth the wait. Those are the tears I cry, finally knowing a love without lies. Now I know what love's supposed to be and it is what's between you and me. |
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| Forever and a Day December 8, 1999 |
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Oh how much I love you, and in so many ways, so much more I do, with each new passing day. I am glad I mean the same to you, I feel what you feel, I am so attached to you. You are in my every thought, You are behind all that I do, I wish I could have spent forever with you. I wasn't there to start it with you, I would have waited if I knew, but that's OK because there is still much time... most of forever was not left behind. So we will spend the rest here together and just start it again on the day that comes after. I want to make life so perfect for you, a perfect life for one as perfect as you, The prettiest smile on the prettiest face, the most caring touch, most loving embrace, beautiful hair, eyes without compare, the softest skin, the sweetest stare, a voice like music, a presence devine, a stimulating mind, kisses like wine, there's never been another so fine... or will there be, and when forever comes it will be you I want to see and then again on the very next day. |
With sweet words and soft kisses, ...one thousand love sent wishes... a close tight hug with a heart felt sigh, my mind just spins when you are by my side. As it will when we pass through forever and get to the day that comes thereafter. Our first Christmas is drawing near, happy seasons for us to share, sounds of love are all I hear. You are the one I hold most dear. There's not enough hours in the day I fear, to show you how much I really do care, to tell you I'll always be there, even until forever and a day is here. And on the day I won't go away, but rather start it with love right away. A brand new forever to spend with you, one based on love and all that is true. Never again will pain show it's face, never apart will we be from a loving embrace, never to hear words that will cause us pain, never a memory that we want to fade, never a night that we'll spend alone, never will we be in a unhappy home, never will other scars be placed on our hearts, never will we be torn apart, always will we love, always care, always cherish, always hold dear, each other with all our hearts, and on the day after forever, our own forever and a day will start. |
| My Wish December 17, 1999 |
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When I first saw you, how could I know? Just how much you'd touch my soul. or how much happiness you'd bring to me as my days pass. Everyday a little more, The coldness there now starts to warm and its all because the love you give, is the reason I love to live. Everyday I find out more, just how much that I adore every little thing you do and all the things I see in you. Every single word you say, becomes a song that my heart plays, beating there inside of me, and when you are near, more rapidly, lying there within my arms, removing all this day's harms. You resting upon my chest, kissing softly along my neck. Oh how sweet a heaven's this, when you're away it's sorely missed. So simple words I write for you, about the love I have for you, expressing what I want for us, to always love is the one must. There is something I'd like to give, for with you I'd like to forever live, A symbol perhaps, a token too, of all the affection I have for you. |
Something to let others know, that this isn't a love that will quickly go, burn out so quickly and runaway, our's will last forever and a day. You are what I have forever been wishing, the one who I want to spend forever with kissing, and to place a ring one day on your hand, one with a diamond on a golden band, and just as forever my love will be, for you are the one who can always complete me. Just like the diamond you shine all the time, I am so lucky to have you as mine. One day perhaps you'll marry me, I promise I'll ask, but will you listen to me? There is one more thing that we will need. Somewhere to live, somewhere to sleep, somewhere to love, and our hearts keep. A little place that we'll call home, no more nights spent all alone, to every night have you there, to caress your body, touch your hair, to see you upon waking each and every day, to wake up together and occasionally play. Each new day will begin with a kiss, with the one who has always been my wish. |
| Greatest Gift December 22, 1999 |
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The best gift I will get on Christmas won't be found under anyone's tree, in a box or any store no matter what the fee. It will not be some material thing, or a short-lived fantasy, It's not a little, simple thing, you mean too much to me. Your love is the best gift I have ever had, or could buy at any price, it has to do with your eyes, they bring me ectasy, and your little smile, when you think of me, it's the way that you move, what a sight to see, and the way you rest your head, lying next to me. You say you don't believe it, when I say you're so sexy, but such a lovely beautiful girl you are, what else could you be? You are the very woman that's in all my dreams. When I go to sleep that night, the one that's Christmas Eve, more than anything else I hope, that you will be there with me, for even if every gift in the world, was to be found under my tree, they would not mean a thing without you there with me. For you are all I love, all that I enjoy, you are everything good in the world, the greatest gift to me. |
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| Never Really Lived January 4, 2000 |
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Four months now, one third a year. I'd never imagine how much I'd love you dear. You touch my heart in so many ways. I never want to be apart for all my days. When I am no longer right by your side, my eyes do not wander for you are always on my mind. I could never replace you you mean that much to me. Priceless are you and always will be. What could I find in another that you do not bring to me? and why would I bother for they would not make me as happy. For you are one of a kind there is no one else like you. So my heart to you I bind and also everything I do. I can only hope to see as reality the dream that my heart feels. Which is the day that you marry me... the day which my dreams turn real. For I finally know what love is, and it is what we share. There is no way to replace this for true love is just too rare. You are the only one who can complete me just like in that biblical story. As if from the same clay we be removed as one from God's quarry. Each and every day I cherish all my time spent with you You showed me what to be cared for is and adore you for this I do. So in the end with my last breath, I will look back at all of this, and know I have but one small regret… that those first several years of my life, which, without you, were never really lived. |
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| Once Apart January 6, 2000 |
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Once apart then two hearts, now just one always beating. Same time, a year ago, so alone, but now I'm dreaming. Hear a song, in my mind, sing it now, you are every line. If I thought, I'd be here, I'd have waited, a thousand years. My small heart, beats for you, and my eyes, search for you. Every touch, warms my heart, hotter than, a fire raging. Closer now, a sweet embrace, I feel love, my pulse racing. How can I, control myself, when you are, living ectasy. Everything, I could want, I find in you, never wanting more. One day, we will be, just you and me, always so happy. |
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| Without You January 25, 2000 |
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What made the sun decide to shine on me? What made my dreams become reality? What made you decide to be, the light for my soul to see? You are everything I have ever dreamed and everything I thought I'd never have. All things seemed possible for me except love...until you let it be. Now there are things I'd thought I'd never do again, but that was before my life had began. Rules rewritten, my heart was smitten I give my heart to you, because it cherishes you. Its a scary thing when your heart's on a string, but its held by you and I love you. So like a sail it soars, through the threshold of your love's doors. You are its main mast. My future, present and past with love that lasts and lasts. We will sail the seas of love tranquility. So dear to me you are you see. One day long after we marry, I will still tell you these things Sheri because everything I say I mean as if today was eternity. I will always love you as a friend from this day to the end. I will always love you as my wife because without you my life's not life. |
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| In Time January 27, 2000 |
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When I say maybe baby, or probably, it means there is something I need you to say. Something is hurting me or I am having a rainy day. Just tell me you love me, the pain will go away, but don't get mad please, it just makes it worse for me. Tell me how stupid it is, or how long ago it was and how little it meant... if you can that is, but if it wasn't so long ago, or so stupid to you, or meant something more, I will try to understand, but try to understand me. I am just a man. I love you all I can, I ask you things not to judge, but to understand you. How can I say forever and a day if I really don't know you and accept those other days, the ones while I was away? Not every detail I ask of everyday from the past, but just those things I have heard or those I have glanced which seem so strange to me, and in my mind causes pain, but the promise I make is to listen to you too. Explain my things to you. Why be in pain? Torment our brains? |
Remember in a poem I did say? Half and half we shall with pain make it go far away until in the end we are happy again. So take some of my pain, bear it with me, I wouldn't ask if I could keep it in me, and I will take some of it back, as I said 'half and half'. Listen to me, you will see, you are always perfect and always will be. Maybe it's hard to be my best friend, as well as my true love from now until end, but what we have is better right down to each and every letter of the words I say to you about how much I love you and adore you too. Nothing will take that away. It's only temporary pain, it's only rain. We should remember the sun will come out again and in the end I will give you love as my bestest friend and listen while I hold your hand. When you need it I will take the stand. You can lean on me baby, just let me lean sometimes too and I will give you love as no one else can as we lay hand in hand, heart to heart in our bed. Not even our breaths are apart, or the beats of our hearts. One day there will be no more rain, the sun will not fade, I will learn this in time, that you will always be mine. |
| My Sun Does Rise January 31, 2000 |
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When I look into your eyes, I see my life ahead of me. I see my dreams become reality. And when I kiss your mouth I feel my heart beat rapidly, lost in all the love that you have for me. And when I kiss your neck, I hear your breathing start to rise. I feel you tremble down inside. I love the way you kiss me back, with love so deep and not an act. When I touch you softly, caressing your whole body, kissing each part gently, before I kiss each passionately. Our bodies intertwine, only each other on our minds. And when I hear you sigh, it touches me deeply inside, for as long as you are happy that is what's best to me. When I feel you lie back against me, at the end of our loving and kissing, I know this is where I want to be, and to your breathing always listen, for those last few moments before I fade away, into slumber deep next to my baby, holding you oh so closely, embracing you with every inch of my body, breathing in your heavenly scent, wondering where my mind has went, gone for a few hours until the next day, when sleep is over and both of us wake, and then again, I look into your eyes, and know love again as my sun does rise. |
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| Five Months By February 4, 2000 |
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Five months by, how time flies, so many things coming up in our lives... Valentine's Day, month number three, six months then that you will have been with me. Soon after that we will have our own place, each and every day I can awake to your face. Somewhere along the way a ring for you, as well as a promise to always love too and then after that our marrying day. Vows will be spoken. Solemn promises made. Swearing we will love each other to always be fair, never to stray, never with each other's hearts play, to still love each other in forever and a day. Then we shall start our lives together anew, shortly after our hunnymoon. To lie in the sun and together swoon, finding happiness in all that we do. Life will be harder on some of the days, but together we will get through and another day praise. As long as we have each other, it will be OK. I will always love you, there is no maybe, until forever and day you are my baby. |
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| When I Ask February 16, 2000 |
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When I ask will you say yes, or will you look away? Will you say don't come back, or to try another day? Will you shine just like a diamond as brightly as the sun, or will you cut out all the light, turn my life into the blackest night? Will you set my soul aflame to match my burning heart, or will you send a great deluge to put the fire out? It's just a question that I will ask. You're not required to say yes because no will work also for this task, but hopefully one day you'd change your mind. There is no need to run away, I will still love and want to play. You'd just know that I will always and never stop loving on any day. You are the best things that's happened to me and you are whom I want to marry and who I want to hold when I sleep, and who I want to kiss so deep. It's just a diamond on a band, It's just asking for your hand, It's just a request to always love, and to be loved back forever more. I somehow know that you'll say yes, and that that my cause a heart attack, my heart has never known love back, it has always been strained upon a rack. All the pain is in the past, for I finally know love at last, It is all because of you and why I will always love you. |
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| I Will Never Part March 29, 2000 |
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As we lay here together, I feel better than ever. Your siloette before me in the dark. My hands trace your figure. My lips pause to linger. Your skin is so soft to my touch. I never imagined it could be this way, but here you are... and you're here to stay. I am so glad that I found you and that you love me too, our love is never ending. I want you for the rest of my life, here as my wife, Forever and a day. You are the princess of my heart from your love I will never part. It's getting later in the evening. I can hear you asleep breathing. I don't think I'll make it through the night. Your back against my body, I hear your heart sounding. It's as if it's talking to my heart... telling it to wake up...to be alive, I want you here forever right by my side. I am so glad that I found you and that you love me too, our love is never ending. I want you for the rest of my life, here as my wife, Forever and a day. You are the princess of my heart from your love I will never part. I am so glad that I found you and that you love me too, our love is never ending. I want you for the rest of my life, here as my wife, Forever and a day. You are the princess of my heart from your love I will never part. |
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| This Is How… July 27, 2000 |
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Just how long has it been since I told you... that I love you. Those words are not so hard to say, but if I put them in a letter you can read them on some other day. Perhaps they will put a smile upon your face when you fall from grace. Maybe light up your brown eyes when there is no sun to upon them shine or maybe they'll simply let your mind just drift and take you to some nicer place now, would that place be here with me? This is how we will live. This is how we will love. This is how it will be. Just you and me, and love, everyday. Just how long has it been since I showed you... that I love you. Those things are not so hard to do, but if I put them in a picture you can see them on some other day. A few simple acts of caring as into your soul I stare. Just a few little kisses as I caress your hair. If you stay right here with me I will always be by your side. Is this the life you want to see or do you want to run and hide? This is how we will live. This is how we will love. This is how it will be. Just you and me, and love, everyday. Just how long has it been since you've tasted such a life as sweet as this. Is it a sweet ambrosia? Do you savor heaven's bliss |
or does it leave your mouth so bitter that you'll have to spit? I try to do what I can and some of the things I can't. Whatever is your desire, is how my time is spent. I want you to know that I love you more each and every day and when my time here on earth is done I'll love you even from the grave This is how we will live. This is how we will love. This is how it will be. Just you and me, and love, everyday. Just how long has it been since I made you feel so loved that you are filled with zeal that it is each day your heart I steal, and keep it company... or is it that your mind just reals at the time that my life steals and that you wish you'd be rid of me. I just want you to feel this love, as I do each and everyday, for it to continue is what I pray, I have become your and its slave. You are always in my every prayer. You are always in my heart. To always love you I do swear, and from you never part. This is how we will live. This is how we will love. This is how it will be. Just you and me, and love, everyday, until forever says it has always been just you and me, and love, everyday, for eternity. |
| That's Why I Love You July 27, 2000 |
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Do you know how much I love you, adore you? You are my everything... a fatal thing, because without you, what am I? You make me me and I love you. The sun and moon and my dreams too. That's what you are That's why I love you. |
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| What You Are! July 27, 2000 |
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What you are is beautiful! What you are is the world to me! You are my everything! You are all that I need! You are all that I want! Forever... |
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| Marry Me July 27, 2000 |
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Sheri, Marry me. So everyday my heart will play, in the love you give, to the life I live, and when I wake up and we make love, my heart will sing of the love you bring, and how happy I am, to know, to live, the love we share forever more, to explore, every place, to see your face, to know love's embrace. |
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| Yesterday April 5, 2001 |
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Yesterday my life was pain. Some say my heart was slain, but when it sees you there my heart has to breathe your air. First one beat, and then a few my heart does not know what to do. should it just stop and let you go or beat harder, fight the undertow I pause to think, of what this means, for still the true you is a sight unseen. you are just a story, some kind words, an exchange of pasts, and a few small laughs When I think of the present I have to gasp, will my future be different from my past? Is the true person their face or their words? the words of beliefs that they always stand for? It seems that the face is the picture on a wall, At first glance you may not see all the flaws, but the words of a person you can see right into to know if they're good, to know if they're true, to know if it is pain they are out to cause you. But you've been pained too you know what it'll do I hope you keep it from me as I will keep it from you. |
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| Mesmerized May 23, 2001 |
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Tears of happiness upon my cheek from the words that your lips speak. A nice warm feeling in my chest, hoping we'll pass true love's test. All the angels in heaven sing of these feelings that you bring me. To think it has only been a short few days, and already my minds a blur and my heart ablaze. Has there been some spell upon us cast? If that is so just make it last, until the rest of this life together, and in the end forever. I will never forget when I first saw, for whom so soon that I would fall. I will always remember that first kiss, that we placed on each other's lips. And now I dream of the first embrace, to be shared in our own place and even perhaps our wedding dance is there even a chance? We cannot rush, we need to wait, let time pass and see if it's fate, but it's never too soon to fall into love and share another sweet tight embrace as I get lost in your eyes, and just be mesmerized. |
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| TIME...time August 3, 2001 |
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time...time... I will give you all my time time...time... more than you can stand time...time... you asked for it... time...time... isn't this what you wanted? time...time... you should have never lied to me once you took my hand. time...time... take all of me time...time... you think you already have time...time... you thought you'd leave me rotting don't you understand time...time... that was me since the beginning you'll never understand time starts here my friend I will keep count for you time...time... until your's ends. time...time... ticking...ticking... but time here never ends you'll wish you never came this way foolish mortal trying to play the games gods play. time...time... what can you do to someone who's lost everything? you give them back something broken time...time... and you gave me back me. time...time... your time runs out so quickly thought you'd leave me with a curse time...time... more of a mind opening affliction time...time... we will see who's hurt. time...time... you've just awakened my addictions. time...time... watch the sand run out time...time... now time to meet your maker, dear time...time... come to me as the last grain falls... time...time... I lied too though, I should have told you when I said time here never ends time...time... I meant for me, not you |
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| Your Heart and Mine February 11, 2002 |
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walk on ... go ahead leave me behind, I will still be here never ending am I one more time I take it in stride my heart is my guide Breathe in the pain let it loose no more to explain my life is my noose I live it well you're the reason I fell Now is my time I drew the line Only me on this side Until I have what I need and by that I'll abide So I hold the line until next time when you are by my side and together we stride all the time your heart and mine |
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| Ready To Fly February 26, 2002 |
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We're not ready to fly, because we both don't have our wings. Is it ok for me to just lie here tonight, and dream so soundly by your side? Maybe tomorrow... things will be alright, but for now while they are crumbling around us, let's go seek some shelter and wait. We're still not ready to fly, we still don't have our wings, but spending more time together can be just like flying it seems... Even here on the ground all I see are the stars and you, soaring all around me and in that my heart takes flight just hold my hand, please don't leave. Maybe we'll never fly... maybe we won't have wings, but thats ok because here with you is better than flying could ever be. |
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